landofsomethingsomething:

lindsaylohac:

i know this is hella old news now but just imagine being dirk strider and growing up alone in a post apocalyptic world with a small handful of friends to talk to but who youve never met

and over the years you sort of feel like you screw everything up. you feel guilty because you cant return the feelings of a friend who is in love with you. because you fall in love with a different friend, then push him away. then alienate your other remaining friend in the process. you’re overcomplicated and intense and overbearing and manipulative and you know all your flaws but youre confused and lonely and 16 and you hate yourself so much and 

youve modelled yourself your whole life on an ancestor. your bro, who was brave, and talented, and important, and heroic. and you can meet him. a version of him thats your age. and itll be a blank slate and youre so excited to meet your idol.

and you meet him

and one of the first things he says to you is 

and he tells you all about your abusive alternate self who you cant seem to detach from your identity and

all you can think is that everything you touch you destroy

I honestly think about this a LOT, like, Dirk played it off well because that’s what he does, but if I think too hard about it I get SERIOUSLY secondhand upset, like, damn. That is fucking rough. Dirk idolized Alpha Dave so much but it’s not just that, it’s just thinking about how Dirk must have like, rehearsed so many times in his head how it would go if he ever got the chance to actually meet Dave, any version of Dave. He must have seriously thought about it all the time, ran through so many scenarios and scripts and what to say and oh my god, then it actually fucking happens which is a miracle for him unto itself, and … it’s worse than his worst case scenario? Dave just sits there, obviously uncomfortable, Dirk has no idea what to do or say or what’s going on or why it’s so awkward and NO SCRIPT he ever envisioned was like this, and then Dave whips all of that out and like, holy shit. 

Fucking devastating man. 

I’m so fucking glad Dave went in for that hug at the end of that sequence, because like, everyone always focuses on what a big moment it was for Dave’s character, which is totally fair – it was – but god, Dirk needed it JUST as bad.